I boarded the train going somewhere. I knew exactly where I was going, I knew what it will look like when I get there and I had a good idea of how it will feel. There was one thing missing however – I was not sure how long it was going to take to get there.
I could prepare myself for time lost if I missed my exact train, as well as the possible time lost making platform changes and asking for directions. I could prepare myself for the time lost by taking an indirect train instead of a direct train with no changes as well as the time lost running around plainly confused about whether or not I was even on the right side of the platform. Again, something is missing – no matter how prepared I was for the expected, I could not prepare myself for things I had no control over. I could not have been prepared for the flood that rendered all forms of transportation inoperative, the strong winds that came and disrupted the power supply which affected the trains, the earthquake that shook the earth so much that I had no idea how we all survived. No, I could not have prepared myself for all those things. My destination however, I am determined to get to.
The flood set me back a few weeks, the cut in power supply meant that I had to adjust my plans without necessarily touching or changing the real essence of why I had set out in the first place. The earthquake meant I had to go back home, visit family and make sure everyone was alright. All these I did, not forgetting my ultimate destination.
I quickly came to the realisation that I had been set back in terms of time. I realised my steps were less gracious than when I had initially embarked on the trip. I realised my enthusiasm had waned a bit from the stress of going back and forth, I realised I carried more fear in me than when I had first attempted. Yet, I am determined to get to my destination.
I set out early the next day, saying goodbye to family and friends. They stare at me in annoyance and ask “How long?” Their real expression however, was, “I am not sure you realise all the forces you have just overcome, you are simply lucky to be alive and should be staying put right here. So tell us explorer, how long will you keep on trying?”
My response was: “As long as it takes”.
As long as there is breath in us, there is hope, there is life, there is purpose, and there is a reason to keep on keeping on.