Waiting and longing for something you desperately want, need or believe you should have is not fun. To put it simply, it sometimes hurts to wait!
It almost feels like a cycle; you start to wait in hope, time goes by and your expectation lingers. Sometimes, it begins to look like your hope may not be helping much and perhaps, you settle into a feeling of disappointment and then suddenly, something happens that shines a bit of light into that situation and you want to hang onto that light for as long as you can. At that point, it feels like your only source of optimism. Then slowly, the light begins to fade and hope now sounds like it is calling your name from a very far distance. You were so sure things were about to turn-around for the better but it feels like it has slipped away yet again.
Some days, your smile will be as bright as the sun because hope just whispered to you that the change you so desperately seek is closer than you think. On other days, you just cannot see past the now and perhaps, you feel like the world is working against you.
Again, you remember that all you have to hold onto is hope albeit with a little more caution and a little bit of fear this time because you remember so freshly how it felt when it seemed like hope had let you down.
Your ability to see through to the other side, past your current experiences, the bleakness and the uncertainty, all depend on how hard you are willing to hang-on.
The struggle persists particularly because hope seems vague. It gives us no timelines, no end date, no traffic light signals of stop, prepare and go, neither does it say when the situation will change. Hope just says, hold onto me!
It can be very hard to hold onto hope however, it is what keeps you going. The question nonetheless is, who is your hope in? What is His track record? Is it one of success? How powerful is He? How trustworthy is He?
The strength of your hope is in the power of what is backing it up.
So where is your hope and who is backing you up?
Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Numbers 23:19 – God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfil it?